lonely

I HATE BEING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apa ini???
padahal it's been a long time i can handle this...
and usually it doesn't matter of being alone eventhough for several days..
and it's not 24 hours yet..

sure, i believe..there's a time when people get sensitive and need someone,
well in fact, i don't need anyone..
i'll hurt that person..and just create another problem..
it's okay if i can solve it..realistically i can't..
and i must be a little bit mature..
and make sure i don't need anyone to be hurt..
just because i'm in the bad mood..

sometimes i hate became myself now on..
i was a strong little girl..
and i realize i only can sorry for that..

i saw my self in the mirror..
and i really proud of myself..
i was weak in everyone's vision..
but indeed i really know how to make myself comfort..

and now, again, i see my reflection..
and my eyes turn to red..
and my head is like ready to blow up..
and still i don't know what to do..

then he call me..
and in any case..no one can live alone..